You're Tsumugi's Doppelganger, aren't you? Or -- her shadow, again? You're just trying to sabotage her, like you were last time!
[She's getting up in Tsumugi's face and grabbing her collar. Her breath is getting more labored from the quick physical action and from what's pretty clearly a rising level of anxiety.]
I don't believe it, you hear me? I don't believe it.
Tsumugi is my friend. My friend doesn't run killing games. My friend isn't a killer.
The 'me' who would've kept her head down and never said anything is... changing. As much as I can I'm trying to make amends and take responsibility.
And you're not the only one who knows. --Quite a few people know.
So, I had to put my heart out there one last time... because... thinking "I had this one great friend, Nessa, but I had to lock my heart behind a wall and never let her see the real me otherwise she would've hated me... I had to let her only see a false me instead..."
[Nessa bites down on her lip. She's so angry and so emotional. A voice in her head tells her, don't say what you're about to say. Don't say it. Just walk away if you have to, don't say this next part--]
Killing people just for your own enjoyment, just makes you just like Typhon -- just like Esmau!
[She shoves Tsumugi away. Her face feels hot, tears are already forming and falling.]
I could never consider someone like that my friend!
[She's just openly crying now, and she hates it. She slaps one hand over half of her face as if that'll mask how overcome with emotion she is. It doesn't.]
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[Nessa's eyes suddenly narrow.]
You're Tsumugi's Doppelganger, aren't you? Or -- her shadow, again? You're just trying to sabotage her, like you were last time!
[She's getting up in Tsumugi's face and grabbing her collar. Her breath is getting more labored from the quick physical action and from what's pretty clearly a rising level of anxiety.]
I don't believe it, you hear me? I don't believe it.
Tsumugi is my friend. My friend doesn't run killing games. My friend isn't a killer.
[It's...not clear who she's trying to convince.]
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But it won't hold the same weight for you. The people in it are strangers and you won't have seen the ways many others died first.
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[Nessa's head ducks down.]
Why are you telling me this? If you're not trying to make me hate Tsumugi, why would you tell me this?
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[She sighs.]
The 'me' who would've kept her head down and never said anything is... changing. As much as I can I'm trying to make amends and take responsibility.
And you're not the only one who knows. --Quite a few people know.
So, I had to put my heart out there one last time... because... thinking "I had this one great friend, Nessa, but I had to lock my heart behind a wall and never let her see the real me otherwise she would've hated me... I had to let her only see a false me instead..."
... I couldn't live with that. I'm sorry.
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If you've seen as much of my Heart as you seem to have, then... ..
[One of her hands slides off of Tsumugi's collar.]
Why would you think I would want to be friends with somebody involved in a game like that?
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I...
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Killing people just for your own enjoyment, just makes you just like Typhon -- just like Esmau!
[She shoves Tsumugi away. Her face feels hot, tears are already forming and falling.]
I could never consider someone like that my friend!
[She did not manage to make herself not say it.]
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I'm... not the same person...
I was when I first came here, but I'm not now...
This is my... redemption arc...
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Nobody is sitting at a computer writing down the things we're saying! This is REAL!
Do you know what that means?! That means the lives you trampled all over were real too!
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I know! I know all that! I never considered them people at the time... I was wrong.
I'm not Esmau... just like I wasn't Nell!
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[She's just openly crying now, and she hates it. She slaps one hand over half of her face as if that'll mask how overcome with emotion she is. It doesn't.]
Just because --
I'm not like Esmau! I'm not like you! I'm not!
[She turns and storms away.]
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But...
It's impossible for Tsumugi to not just slide down into that corner and sit for a while.]